Lesson 18: The troubles of my heart are enlarged, bring me out of my distresses.
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 O Lord, Lord, my heart weeps and sighs, my conscience quakes and trembles, my soul is as a grieved mother deprived of her only child, and cannot be comforted, since I, an ungodly sinner, neither sincerely sought, acknowledged nor appreciated Your godly love and paternal kindness. I have lived more disgracefully than the irrational creatures for they, in eating, drinking and doing other things, do not go beyond their instinct and do not transgress the laws of nature. I have lived more uselessly, sinfully, intemperately and unrighteously against the laws of nature than my ungodly flesh naturally desired.

I was conscious that the desires of my flesh were death. Your Spirit warned me of my evil doing. Yet my flesh suppressed all warning. I was in all things a servant of sin and sworn unto unrighteousness. I drank down sin as water. My delight was in all manner of folly. I did not see the outstretched arm of Your grace. I did not hear the calling of Your voice. I did not accept Your inviting love. In short, I hated Your knowledge, and Your fear I cast behind me.

This is not all, dear Lord. I acted so badly in my ignorance but I find daily that my righteousness is as filthy rags. When I think that I am going, I am falling. When I stand, I am down. When I think I am something, I am nothing. Therefore, O Lord, preserve me, for the fear of my heart is very great. I often am as a woman in labor; my face is pale. My hands are upon my loins on account of the trouble of my heart. The dangers of hell surround me, the fatness and marrow of my bones are dried up.

Here neither money nor possessions, neither flesh nor blood, are of any value, but my soul is at stake; eternal life or eternal death is the issue. I, therefore, pray, “Forsake me not, dear Lord, but open the eyes of Your mercy and behold my great burden, stand by me and deliver me from all my distress.”